2005-01-30���10:59 p.m.

Listening to mazzy star. Man this is such a great album. Its weird how much I enjoy depression. My shrink once told me that I was never realy happy unless I was totaly miserable. Yeah she was pretty much right. Its the only time I feal normal and know how to function. Happynes is unsafe. It never lasts so I dont trust it. Its better this way. I can put in a cd. Take a couple of vicoden drink some vodka amd melt away. At least this way I am in control.

Fade into you.........