2003-08-29���10:18 p.m.

Siting here listening to VNV Nation. Such a good album. It is after 10 and I should realy be in bed. I have a lot on my mind at the moment though. I wrote her last night. Not sure what kind of respone ill get. Things are just so diferent now. I know I am a lot diferent. I can only imagine she is also. Things never stay the same. Thats ok I guess though. I have been watching the US open. I was way disapointed today. Daniela lost 2-6,4-6

That totaly blows. She has a doubles match tomorow so I hope she does better. Still the 3rd round at the us open is way good. I just realy wanted her to win. Like anyone reading this realy cares about tennis anyway. Beloved just came on. Man this is such a great song. I dont know if peaple realy read the lyrics to songs when I put them here. Even if you dont usualy read these beacaus they are great. Night

It's colder than before

The seasons took all they had come for

Now winter dances here

It seems so fitting don't you think?

Dress the ground in white

And grey

It's so quiet I can hear

My thoughts touching every second I spent

Waiting for you

Circumstances affords me

No second chance

To tell you

How much I've missed you

My beloved do you know

When the warm wind comes again

Another year will start to pass

And please don't ask me why I'm here

Something deeper brought me

That I need to remember

We were once young and blessed with wings

No heights could keeps us from their reach

No sacred place we did not soar

Still greater things burned within us

I don't regret the choices that I've made

I know you feel the same

My beloved do you know

How many times I stared at clouds

Thinking that I saw you there

These are feelings that do not pass so easily

I can't forget what we claimed was ours

Moments lost though time remains

I am so proud of what we were

No pain remains

No feeling

Eternity awaits

Grant me wings that I might fly

My restless soul is longing

No pain remains

No feeling

Eternity awaits

Moments lost though time remains

I am so proud of what we were

No pain remains

No feeling

Eternity awaits

Grant me wings that I might fly

My restless soul is longing

No pain remains

No feeling

Eternity awaits

See I told you they were great.