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2002-07-15���11:58 p.m. Have you ever read Harry potter or seen the movie? I was with a friend tonight and we were talking about the mirror of Erised. I asked her what she would see if she looked into it She told me she would see herself working at a theater. She is realy into theater and performing arts so that is cool. When she asked me what I would see I took a Veto. We have a rule that once a day we can veto a question that the other asks and not answer it. I have no dought in my mind what I would see. I would see you and me lying on my bed at nats and talking. That is my one hearts desire. I miss that more then I ever thought I could miss anything. God we would talk for hours just lying there. man I want a drink bad right now. I wont do it though. no more running. Sometimes I just miss you so much and it is so hard. I know it is hard for you too. I am so sorry for that. I am listening to the Cure and that is such a bad idea at the moment. I know if Jason were here right now he would take the cd from me and smack me upside the head and ask me what the fuck I thought I was doing. I try so hard all the time to pretend that I dont care and that its ok this way but I know its not. I love you and I miss you. I've been looking so long at these pictures of you That I almost believe that they're real I've been living so long with my pictures of you That I almost believe that the pictures are All I can feel Remembering You standing quiet in the rain As I ran to your heart to be near And we kissed as the sky fell in Holding you close How I always held close in your fear Remembering You running soft through the night You were bigger and brighter and wider than snow And screamed at the make-believe Screamed at the sky And you finally found all your courage To let it all go Remembering You fallen into my arms Crying for the death of your heart You were stone white So delicate Lost in the cold You were always so lost in the dark Remembering You how you used to be Slow drowned You were angels So much more than everything Hold for the last time then slip away quietly Open my eyes But I never see anything If only I'd thought of the right words I could have held on to your heart If only I'd thought of the right words I wouldn't be breaking apart All my pictures of you Looking so long at these pictures of you But I never hold on to your heart Looking so long for the words to be true But always just breaking apart My pictures of you There was nothing in the world That I ever wanted more Than to feel you deep in my heart There was nothing in the world That I ever wanted more Than to never feel the breaking apart All my pictures of you |
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